Pressure

I had not a great time last week. But I can not find the reason of unhappiness. I think it may be a lot of reasons to be blended so I would be so unhappy. In my opinion, the one of reasons maybe is pressure.

I feel so nervous from the first day of F.5. Actually I want to relax ourselves every time and everywhere. However...... you can see that, it was not so successful. I am still so nervous and have lots of pressure which makes me so down and unsmiling. I always go to library choosing some interesting fictions to read it. But I have not enough time to enjoy my reading time. I can not relax my pressure.

The other reason of unhappiness, I would think perhaps it is my study. I was very hard and afraid that I can not control the difficult lessons. When I think it deeply, the mood will be changed too badly. I feel so depressed the day by day and really want to leave this school. Then going sleep at my bed deeply and happily. I think it will be a good idea, do you agree?

P.S. I hope that I can change the worst mood quickly and return to be the happy girl.